Hmm, looks like I'm spending the first day of the new year at home. Well, its not too bad actually. At least I can slowly take my time to plan out this year's resolutions. Should I post them here? Maybe... Or maybe not... Well, at least I will write them down somewhere so I won't forget.

One resolution though is definitely to write more often. Writing here and expressing my thoughts on somewhat random topics. Definitely.

When coming back home from work yesterday (yes I know it was new year's eve), the train was extremely crowded. Something I don't really get is, why would people want to squeeze with others just to go to some place to be squeezed with more people for the countdown? Maybe I'm just suffering from some form of social autism, hating crowds and all. But the point is, I don't see what is so interesting about dancing or partying or whatever you call it with a bunch of strangers. Oh well, maybe its just me I guess.

Hopefully 2011 would be better than last year. Ah heck, things only get tougher and worse, hardly better. Even the Earth is slowly dying. Well, if it does die, everything else would be gone wouldn't it? Heck, with so many vested interests no wonder countries don't want to cooperate efficiently to stop climate change. Or have we gone beyond the point of no return? I really don't know.

Happy New Year! And may all these issues be resolved.
Clemence at 3:32 PM

Hmm, it may seem that this post may be a bit too early... Or maybe not since the year is ending in 27 hours from where I am? This year sure was eventful.



Let's recap the major highlights for me this year:



A levels



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Hmm, for some strange reason its only the A levels that I can remember about.



Well, prom was kinda major event, but not really too important for me to remember? Or maybe not? Is it why I can't remember most of my childhood? Is it due to the fact that they have no significance and therefore have no importance to be in my memory?

The year is coming to a close no matter what happens. Another chapter in my life is coming to a close as well. Maybe I should just look forward and forget about the past. Why do humans have eyes on facing the front? Because we are meant to look forward and not back. Simple as that.

This is the end of a very short post.
Clemence at 9:06 PM

"Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life."
Clemence at 10:30 PM

Look into a mirror and what do you see? Someone who is happy? Or sad? Angry? Upset? Disappointed? Guilty? Tired? Depressed? You get the idea. Been reading Harry Potter again. Still quite intrigued by the Mirror of Erised (spelling Erised backwards is desire for those who still didn't notice). It shows a man's greatest desire in any circumstances when one looks into it. Quoting from Dumbledore or something similar said by him, a man who is completely happy will only see himself as he is like a normal mirror when viewing through the mirror. I don't really remember the exact phrasing so don't blame me. At least the idea is there.

So back to the question of what do you see when you look in the mirror. In this case the mirror is now changed to the Mirror of Erised. I really don't know what is my heart's desire. Perhaps its to get straight As? I really don't know. But one day I hope that it will be a normal mirror for me, to be free of other desires. Contentment is really the key to happiness. Or is it?

That is something worth thinking about...
Clemence at 5:37 PM

Just one more paper left then the A levels will be over. Well that is really more on the happy side. Been thinking about alot of things lately given so much free time. Weird how one's mind starts to wander when it is not put to use. Mine included as well, or maybe more than others. I don't really know.

Reality, the main idea of this post. What is reality? What is real or what is just a figment of our imagination? Could the life we are living now be just a dream? Watched Inception recently, also the Matrix. All these highlighted, is it a possibility we are trapped in similar circumstances? I'm also thinking about alternate timelines. The many what ifs that could possibly change the way we live now. I mean, I've been thinking, is there a possibility of many alternate universes? With many events having different possible outcomes, just that with one timeline there is one outcome? There would be countless branches of different timelines, i.e. different universes. I have a feeling that they are all parallel and never to meet, after all when a timeline bends, everything that ever existed in that timeline would be destroyed along with the one it collides with. That's just some random theorey. Maybe in another timeline, I wouldn't even be thinking about this at all. Who knows? It is interesting to think of such matters and what really constitutes to reality and the world we live in. No? Maybe its because of the ample free time I have that is causing my thoughts to run amok. But still, it is quite enjoyable to think of such things. Right?

I guess I am in a really philosophical or random mood. It happens when my mind isn't sufficiently occupied I guess. Oh well back to revision then.
Clemence at 11:50 AM

For those who are familiar with poker, the title of this post might seem kinda strange. Well after all, it is only when one is really confident that one will, well, All In. Or for me its the other perspective when I have nothing to lose. Seriously, the A levels are coming to an end already with a few more papers to go. Since this is my last chance, I will go for All In when tackling the remaining papers. I've got a really bad feeling that Chemistry Paper 1 will be yet another killer paper. After the previous two having a killer status given to them, it may be natural to think that the last one will be more managable. No! In fact I know it will be much tougher! Ok, what really gets my goat is that Biology paper 3 is on the same day as Chemistry. Well, having two content heavy papers on the same day is really exhausting.

More about today's events. I cleared out all my other unnecessary notes and they formed a mountain. Maybe I'm exaggerating a little, but there are still lots of notes. I really wonder how many trees I've killed in the last two years. Any idea? Well, back to the old story of wasting resources, etc, etc. This never fails to pop up at random intervals. You get my point?

Ending off now. No quotes for this post though, I'm in no mood for quotes. Or maybe a small one? Hmm... One from me I guess:
When all else fails, go ALL IN. You'll never know that you might win.

That is the original quote by yours truly and anyone wishing to use this should credit me.

P.S That was meant to be a joke :)
Clemence at 11:16 PM

Less than 24 hours left till the next paper. Time seems to fly so fast when you want it to slow down. I'm only 50% confident that I will do well for tomorrow's paper.

Sigh, back to studying for me then. I'm so nervous!

Ending off with a quote again:
We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we make the world.
~ Buddha
Clemence at 8:41 PM

Four more papers to the end of the A level examinations. I'm just wondering why year after year, examinations continue again and again. Sure, its one batch after another, but the resources used to carry out this examination is... Well, alot! Imagine how much paper is used during the examinations, not to mention the huge carbon footprint since our scripts are shipped all the way to UK to be marked and the certificates as well, huge amounts of paper! Well that's my point. The thing is, is it really necessary at all? Well eventually there will be a day without the need of paper during examinations. At least it will help prevent trees from being cut down and all... Or are our scripts recycled after they have been marked and the grades recorded? I really don't know... Perhaps it is why there are no changes in grades despite appeals... Hmm, what do you think?

Anyway, Economics will be tested tomorrow, and I am really nervous about it. Its one of my weaker subjects, so I think it is natural for me to have this reaction. Biology and Chemistry on Monday, then Biology more than a week later. The end really is in sight. One thing though, what would I do with my life after that? Sure, there's prom, but after that what? I applied to be a relief teacher and wonder how my application will go. If I am sucessful, there goes my trip with my friends since I will be stuck here in Singapore.

So the end is in sight. Does it signify a new beginning as well?
Clemence at 11:10 AM

Its still raining after a few hours... The rain seems to be slowing after so long... Its really soothing to just blankly stare at the rain coming down, again and again...

Sigh... Its raining in my world now... I'm without an umbrella, being pelted by the raindrops, buffeted by the wind. I'm soaked to the skin, shivering and cold. I'm alone, neglected and facing the elements alone. There are others around me, yet treat me as though invisible.

Its raining... Its so cold...
Clemence at 7:23 PM

I know its been a long time since I last blogged. A levels, studying, other random stuff... Probably also too lazy to blog as well. I don't know why but I suddenly just feel like blogging for some strange reason. Maybe its because I have an urge to write again? I don't know. But in any case, I'm back! Plus the skin has been changed from the old one. And I think it looks pretty neat don't you think? At the very least its just a one page blog. Well, I'm really lazy, and can't be bothered to add extra stuff, like music, to it for now. So it shall remain as it is for now, till maybe December?

Put in a new tagboard, had no idea where the heck I put the code the last time, so I made a new one. Its completely empty... By some miracle I found the links, so if there are any updates, tag and let me know.

The A level papers up till now so far are... Well, it varies from paper to paper, so no comment on the level of difficulty of each paper. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for Econs though, and hopefully can do well.

Well, during this period, many will find it stressful and tiring, and will most likely be miserable. So I'm ending off with a quote this time:

Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy.
~ Cynthia Nelms

That's it for now. Good luck to those taking the A level examinations for the remaining papers.
Clemence at 4:31 PM